I don't think I've ever been sad to see the end of October. It just doesn't blend with my VIBES, you know? I am February and May and June and November. I am definitely not March, September, or October. Do you ever feel like this or am I a freakshow? I mean I'm a freakshow regardless. But it's like saying a song is yellow. Do you understand this if I say it? Some songs are just yellow.
This October wasn't bad - lots of Polish flashcards and a Loudon Wainwright concert and food from Canters and walks around the block with an excited dog and her favorite companion, who also happens to be my boyfriend. Also 3 weeks of coughing and 5 days of antibiotics, which I just finished on Sunday. I did absolutely nothing on Halloween and felt no remorse. I can't be the only person out there who thinks Halloween is the worst, right? I am as excited for every other day of the year as most people are for Halloween specifically.
I'm so motivated lately. Pep has a million ideas, all the time, and I find myself happily tagging along and helping him create them to the best of my abilities. I don't really have a "business" mindset, so whenever I'm creatively motivated I usually end up painting or designing something for myself until I feel satisfied with myself, and then I rarely see anything from it because I lose interest by the time it's finished (usually before it's finished, if I'm being honest). It's a nice change to have someone to support and build ideas with; I've never had that before.
When we first started talking I tried to avoid letting my feelings get the best of me, mainly because of how my stupid little workplace affair ended wayyyy back in 2009, but you guys. Working with my boyfriend is the fucking greatest. Dating a coworker is totally fine when it happens with someone that truly complements you and has a level head. He lights a creative fire under my ass, understands me, respects me, and blends so well with me that sometimes it's hard to tell where I end and he begins. I am lucky, and I'm so thankful.
I'm noticing a shift in my visual style lately - it's most noticeable with photos I think, but I can see the shift in drawings too. Things are getting moodier. It's almost like I have so much happiness in my life that I'm compensating for it by using dark colors everywhere. Maybe it's just the time of year?
I made a playlist that sounds like November. It's live on Designers.MX but I don't think anyone can listen to it there unless they have an account. Fix that, DMX! What a silly barrier.
PLAYLIST 003 | Molasses
01. Baby, What You Want Me To Do (Etta James) 02. Come On In My Kitchen (Robert Johnson) 03. Many Rivers To Cross (Jimmy Cliff) 04. Rainy Day Man (Bonnie Raitt) 05. I Don't Get It (Cowboy Junkies) 06. Undenied (Portishead) 07. Rich Woman (Robert Planet & Alison Krauss) 08. Floorboard Blues (Cowboy Junkies) 09. Dirty Work (Steely Dan) 10. God Must Be A Boogie Man (Joni Mitchell) 11. That Song About The Midway (Bonnie Raitt) 12. One Rainy Wish (Jimi Hendrix) 13. Voodoo Chile (Jimi Hendrix)