accidental flares of love burst through the atmosphere

Spanish Rose

Topped it, oh yes I did Maybe it's because I'm the happiest with myself and my life that I've ever been? Maybe it's because the people in my life are so good for me/good to me? Maybe I just had a good outlook? Not sure of the reasons. My birthday weekend was filled with beautiful people who laughed with me, hugged me, got manicures with me, danced with me, got tattoos with me, shopped with me, drank with me, waited with me, stayed up late with me, and the list goes on. Friday night the owner of 1642 shut off the music and the entire bar sang to me. Saturday the weather was so perfect for Cinespia; it was just cool enough to enjoy the breeze with a sweater on, and something about the air made the movie and the soundtrack even better than they already are. I didn't even care that halfway through the night one of my contacts fell out and went missing and I had to enjoy the rest of the movie with one hand covering my right eye (Have you ever tried to function with only one contact in? No? Good. Don't.) or with eyes closed.

Cindy and I were sitting on the lawn of Hollywood Forever Cemetery, waiting for the movie to start, and they played all these fantastic songs that I've been listening to ever since. I added to it, and now I am giving it to you so you can love it too. Do I Move You? by Nina Simone has changed my life in that overwhelming how-was-I-ever-OK-before-this-song-was-in-my-life kind of way that only a great song can.

01. Become Like You (Small Faces) 02. Maker (The Hollies) 03. Mrs. Robinson - alternate version from The Graduate (Simon & Garfunkel) 04. Hip Hug-Her (Booker T. & The MG's) 05. Do I Move You? (Nina Simone) 06. Love Eyes (Nancy Sinatra) 08. To Love Somebody (Bee Gees) 09. Twentieth Century Fox (The Doors) 10. April Come She Will (Simon & Garfunkel) 11. Cherry Cherry (Neil Diamond) 12. Blessed (Simon & Garfunkel) 13. Spanish Rose (Van Morrison) 14. The Rhythm Of The Saints (Paul Simon)

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27 feels so good. It feels good to be surrounded by loving people, it feels good to be confident enough with my life that no one's opinions matter unless I decide that they should. It feels good to be full of so much peace. A few months ago I made a promise to myself that I would stop hesitating to show all of the love that I have to give, and I've travelled miles since then.

I'm so excited for the plane ride tomorrow. 5 hours to just...exist. It's been so long since I've had that kind of quiet. It's been so long since I've had time to write or read or draw or just think! I'll probably just stare at the sky for all 5 hours and not do any of those things.

I wish I wasn't allergic to the red ink in my new tattoo! Have you ever had that happen? I'm taking Claritin so I don't look so red and puffy anymore, but holy shit...apparently having an allergy to red dye no. 40 in foods and having an allergy to red ink made with mercury aren't so different. The mooore yoouu knoooow...

Reunions and Jungle Love

It's almost my birthday and I'm going home